When Alicia decided to pursue IVF with her partner Mary, she ended up carrying more than just a baby—she also carried the memory of her own mother. This two-mom family’s story of loss, love, and late-in-life pregnancy redefines the fabric of hope and resilience.

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Editor’s Note: We are so grateful to Alicia for being willing to share her story with us in honor of National Infertility Awareness Week. To learn what RESOLVE and other organizations are doing to protect access to fertility and family-building care across the United States, please visit their website.

Luckily, Alicia’s employer provided amazing fertility benefits, which allowed the couple to access fertility treatment and give them a chance at realizing Alicia’s dream. “I’m not exactly a spring chicken (48 years old at the start of this process) so it was definitely an ‘Are you having a midlife crisis?’ kind of moment,” she says. 

Alicia and Mary decided to find a new fertility clinic and see what was possible. “I didn’t have fond thoughts or memories of my previous fertility clinic,” Alicia admits. “There was no warmth to it, and I knew I wasn’t interested in revisiting that practice.” 

However, Alicia entered into this new journey determined to have a different experience.

“I looked at different clinics that my insurance benefits covered and saw that Illume Fertility was one of them,” she says. “Conveniently, Illume’s Trumbull, CT office was very close to my house, and I liked the name of the practice (Illume – bringing light). Super corny, but sometimes the signs are just there, and to me, this felt like one!”

The couple scheduled an initial appointment and were paired with reproductive endocrinologist Dr. Ilana Ressler. “We had a Zoom consultation and it was such a wonderful experience,” Alicia recalls. “It wasn’t rushed at all – I want to say it lasted an hour.”

They found Dr. Ressler to be incredibly friendly, calm, patient, and understanding, and say she provided a high level of clarity on what the fertility treatment process would entail.

“She didn’t make us feel less hopeful [when it came to my age], but was very open about our odds, and kept our expectations within reason.” This helped the couple stay realistic, yet optimistic, as they moved through the process.

“Honestly,” says Alicia, “I’d never had anyone make me feel so at ease about such a pivotal, life–changing decision.”

Although there was always a lot to do and keep track of, Alicia and Mary never felt overwhelmed. “It was like the best organized chaos,” Alicia says. “Illume has such an established process, and scheduling our appointments was so easy – which is saying a lot.”

The couple worked closely with Illume’s genetic counseling team to figure out the perfect donors for them. “They made sure that we were doing everything we could to make the best decisions, not just for me, but for our embryos,” says Alicia.

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They also met with Dr. Ressler several more times to discuss the IVF process and get their questions answered. “By the end, we almost felt like doctors ourselves!” jokes Alicia. 

Alicia and Mary’s embryo transfer was scheduled for August 2nd. Sadly, as that date drew closer, Alicia’s mom’s health worsened, and she was rushed to the hospital.

“She fought hard for a week, but in the end, she just couldn’t fight anymore,” Alicia says. “It was crushing for all the obvious reasons, but even more so because in my heart, I just knew that we were going to have this baby and she wasn’t going to be here for it.”

Her mom passed away on July 30th, only a few short days before their transfer.

So Alicia and Mary stuck with their plan, arriving at Illume’s Norwalk, CT location for their embryo transfer on August 2nd. “As always, Dr. Ressler and her entire team were so kind and compassionate,” Alicia adds. “They never knew what was happening to me outside of the office – it just speaks volumes about who they are as people.” 

They proceeded with the embryo transfer, then went home for their “two-week wait,” eager to know if their little embryo had successfully implanted. 

“We went into the office on a Friday for the pregnancy test blood work, and our team called us later that day to confirm we were pregnant,” Alicia says. The couple were shocked, and thrilled to hear that Alicia’s beta hCG levels were nice and high.

“When we heard the news, we cried for so many reasons – the joy of it, the sadness of losing my mom and of her not knowing (even though I know she did know),” Alicia adds. “I believe that her loss of life gave life to our baby.”

While the IVF process can be daunting, Alicia says that she and Mary simply leaned into the support and guidance of their Care Team members at Illume and learned all they needed to know. 

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Alicia says that her partner Mary and her own sisters were huge supporters throughout the entire journey. “I’m very blessed and fortunate to have them in my life,” adds Alicia. “The waiting to hear test results or embryo updates was the hardest for me, but that’s just nerves, and part of the process!”

Know That You’re Enough for Your Baby

“This journey will make you question your ability to be good enough for them, but you are more than enough,” Alicia says. “The only thing they need, you already have, and that is that you wanted them, that you love them, and no matter what, you will be there for them.”

Although every parent will inevitably make mistakes and question themselves and their abilities at some point, it’s important to remember that you are your child’s primary foundation, Alicia says. “You will be able to provide what they need to be a good human.”