Hello everyone my name is Lucy and i’m reaching out for help. We have been trying to convince for over 6 years now with no luck…

I remember walking out of there feeling sick and deflated, feeling that I was being denied the right to become a parent, and all because my future husband had children

I was then referred back for gynae issues, for heavy periods. I had been diagnosed with PCOS. They again told me NO investigations could be completed as every woman has heavy painful periods. “Loose some weight and that will help” they unhelpfully suggested…….it didn’t. So back I went.  This time I had done some research of my own as to what I could have done on the NHS with regard to investigations. I was seen by a lady consultant and put all of this to her about further investigations for heavy painful periods, weight gain etc.  She flatly refused to do anything and tried to palm me off with medication. I declined this and said to her “You would not leave a dog like this so why are you leaving me like this?! My periods used to be every 4 weeks now they are every 2 weeks and 4 days!I get no let up!!”  She unhelpfully said to go on the pill! She then said “oh maybe its to do with pcos but it won’t warrant any investigations just go and live your life!!”

I came out of there broken and just wanting my life to end. I wasn’t being listened to helped or supported and I vowed never to return and to just get on with my life……

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Fast forward to last year when we got our IVF round thanks to a giveaway from the amazing ivfbabble. I felt like I finally had hope. We were supported and listened to. We managed to get 3 eggs but sadly our IVF didn’t work. I had so much hope that my time had come, that I would finally see our beautiful embaby go back to his or her home. Just being in that position made my heart so full knowing we were so so close…….but sadly it didn’t work.

I had been working full time, but I had to give up work to become a full time carer for my nanny, who was diagnosed with advanced aggressive muscle invasive bladder cancer. I put my baby dreams to the back of my mind and focused on my nanny and making her life as comfy as possible. She fought hard, but has now gained her wings.

I have gone through the savings I had put aside for a rainy day to support myself over the last 5/6 years whilst I was caring for my family. Tragically, I now find myself in a position where time is slipping through my fingers fast but I have no funds for private IVF and am not eligible for a loan.

The need to be a mummy is overwhelming though and I just can’t imagine a life without a child

I have given myself to others for such a long time, and now I find myself asking for help for me. No one can help me gain more time, but I am hoping that some kind souls will help me fund a round of IVF.

I know times are tough and people are struggling but if you can please please donate if you can – no matter how small. All I would like is one more chance at being a mummy. If it doesn’t happen this time I will try and make my peace with not having children.

Lots of love lucy x